Recovery, Like Life, is a Process and a Journey
I am reminded on a daily basis what an eating disorder can do to a person. I remember being very young and naive and thinking nothing will ever happen, that my ED couldn’t hurt me. I was wrong. I am blessed for having people who believed in me and gave me strength when I didn’t have it and helped me fight to get to the other side.
I have learned how to take things moment by moment and know that it’s ok to not have the extreme ups and downs. It’s ok to be ok.
Perfection is an Unattainable Goal
I have found so many things in recovery that have made me happy. Recovery is a process and a journey. Life isn’t perfect. I have learned not to strive for perfection because it is an unattainable goal. I am back in school to become certified as a Nurse Practitioner in mental health to give back. I have had those moments where I have wanted to give up and thought I was not good enough, but those moments have helped me grow and learn.
I learned that I could be proud of myself no matter what. I used to study all day in undergrad, but now in recovery I have learned to take breaks and practice self care. Before treatment I was terrified of the kitchen and now the kitchen is part of my self care. I love to cook and bake. I also get lost in my own world when I do puzzles. I can read and sing for fun. I have let go of a career that was toxic for me and, and where my ED thrived.
Life is a journey. I have learned to deal with change and it’s ok. Recovery is a hard process but so worth it. I know that I am not alone, and I have people that support me and help me move forward in good times and when times get tough.
You are Worth It
Reach out for help if you need it. You are worth it. I would never be in the place I am now without people who knew my best interest when I couldn’t see it. I could never say I am worth it in the past but I can now. I am worth it and so are you.
